All fresh...

It's so weird as I haven't been blogging for the longest time, 2 & 1/2 years since my last post in 2008....So many changes happened in this 2+ years...

Perhaps it's time for me to start blogging again... This afternoon my friend, WM asked me if I have ever blogged, which reminded me...When was the last time I did so. I guessed that I will be blogging again! :)

Hopefully, not 1 post in 2 & 1/2 years' time. Hmm, easy mathematics show that it will be 10 posts in 25 year's time.. Boy, by then, will we still be blogging? I don't know, or should I say perhaps not.

'Wake up' call

It has almost been 7 months since my last post. Perhaps it's about time for me to blog again.

Today was a 'wake up' call for me to draw closer to the Lord. I did not realise how far apart I have indeed drifted away from the Lord. Thanks to this call, I learnt to cherish life and the people around me even more.

For the people who have lent me their listening ears, you know who you are. It's a priceless gift, thank you. Remember that my ears also yours to lend as well. God bless!

What makes me?

Arena (known to self and others) caring, giving, helpful, spontaneous	Blind Spot (known only to others) able, bold, cheerful, clever, complex, energetic, extroverted, friendly, happy, idealistic, independent, intelligent, kind, loving, observant, patient, reflective, religious, responsive, searching, sentimental, silly, sympathetic, warm
Façade (known only to self) sensible	Unknown (known to nobody) accepting, adaptable, brave, calm, confident, dependable, dignified, ingenious, introverted, knowledgeable, logical, mature, modest, nervous, organised, powerful, proud, quiet, relaxed, self-assertive, self-conscious, shy, tense, trustworthy, wise, witty

Dominant Traits

54% of people agree that Ru Lin is caring
54% of people think that Ru Lin is sentimental

All Percentages

able (9%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (9%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (54%) cheerful (45%) clever (9%) complex (9%) confident (0%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (9%) extroverted (27%) friendly (45%) giving (9%) happy (27%) helpful (18%) idealistic (9%) independent (9%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (18%) introverted (0%) kind (36%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (0%) loving (18%) mature (0%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (9%) organised (0%) patient (9%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (9%) relaxed (0%) religious (18%) responsive (9%) searching (9%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (54%) shy (0%) silly (27%) spontaneous (18%) sympathetic (9%) tense (0%) trustworthy (0%) warm (18%) wise (0%) witty (0%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 29.7.2007, using data from 11 respondents.
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Nothing more....

There's really nothing more for me to say to that someone, I am really exhausted inside out. But I do know (or try to think that I know) that I cannot push myself to the convinction, as it really hurts. I would not forget yesterday 28th July 2007, the day which will change my outlook towards life. A mixed feeling; I feel relieved and at the same time upset that the truth is out.

A friend has advised me, 'Don't wait till it's too late then regret.' This saying would not impact me, as I know I tried my best with no regrets. If that someone can simply forget whatever things I have said, how can he truly be serious for me? A man's promise made is of no value; piled up rubbish.

Through the incidents and events that come along each day of my life, I realised that the learning of survival and living just continue on. There is no stopping, not even a moment for a breather. This is the so-called life. The love and 'hate' composition/relationship has already ceased to exist in my life.

A new journey begins for me and the choice of TRUST allocation will apply from today onwards. Perhaps (i) 100% in God and 0% in people, (ii) 80% in God and 20% in Myself or (iii) 70% in God, 20% in Myself and 10% in people. Which shall it be? Time will tell; I need not do any justification for now. It's definitely not easy for (i), many times we say we trust in God but just how much?

Saint Thérèse de Lisieux - Little ways indeed

Saint Thérèse de Lisieux is known for her "Little Ways". She wrote:

"Love proves itself by deeds, so how am I to show my love? Great deeds are forbidden me. The only way I can prove my love is by scattering flowers and these flowers are every little sacrifice, every glance and word, and the doing of the least actions for love."

"I am a very little soul, who can offer only very little things to the Lord.
I will spend my Heaven doing good on earth.
After my death I will let fall a shower of roses."


"Everything is a grace, everything is the direct effect of our father's love - difficulties, contradictions, humiliations, all the soul's miseries, her burdens, her needs - everything, because through them, she learns humility, realizes her weakness - Everything is a grace because everything is God's gift. Whatever be the character of life or its unexpected events - to the heart that loves, all is well."

Oh life!

Life events are interesting,
they can bridge people together and break people apart,
they can provide the happiness and bring the sadness.

Some say life's a joke, others say life's a torture,
but I say life's a challenge.
A challenge so big that I fight to live.

~

A woman without emotions,
a woman without love,
a woman without concerns, and
a woman without hope is just like
a woman living a worthless life.

I shan't live a worthless life
but a worthy one with no regrets.

Regrets will only hold me back but
let good memories lift me up again.

~

I only yearn for the day to come soon
when I can smile again and know that
letting go is the toughest
but best decision I have made all my life.
For now, I can only live and smile pretending.

Isaac turns 6!

Fantastic time at Godma's place together with her family celebrating Isaac's 6th birthday. Wishing my little Godbrother good health always. Be a good boy! *hugs*